Tuesday, March 14, 2006
I've never had a proper best friend, someone to whom I'd confide *everything* to - all my secrets, regrets, my latest crushes, my appallingly bad taste in music. All through high school I don't ever remember participating in those 'oh my god, isn't (insert hot guy's name here) hot?' conversations, and I think I missed out. Even when my then best friend in middle school told me she fancied this absolute geek (sorry Brandon, I'm sure you turned out well), I never told her that I too fancied him. Instead, I think I may have teased her about it and told her she had bad taste in men. In fact, I don't have many close friends, I don't think I let people in. There are those people who've known me for more years than I'd normally feel comfortable with, but they're usually email friends or people who don't live in the same country as I do (at least you're closer, Diane!) And before, this may have made me feel pretty low.. but then I remembered someone who'd been there long before everyone else, who shared everything with me, caught my tears and always made me feel better. I love you Charlie!