Let's hope this attitude starts to affect other areas of my life. It is time to move forward, I'm getting tired of the person I am becoming, I'm tired of doing the things that I am doing and thinking the things that I've been thinking. Change scares the crap out of me, especially change in some positive way that might mean I need to take responsibility of my thoughts and actions and not just wallow in negativity and pain.
I don't recall writing this, I don't remember what caused it. I thought maybe I'd throw it out there anyway in case anyone else has ever felt a similar feeling. Sorry for downer posts recently!