I've always known that I was a little chubbier than is healthy for a person of my height and build. And even though I don't diet, I do try to maintain a healthy lifestyle. Lately though, I've been a bit lazy in my decisions.
I think there are many reasons for this, but some of it has to do with the colder weather. The cold weather has 'forced' me to drive everywhere, where I used to walk. My treadmill broke last year and that stopped me from continuing my running. We had the Christmas period, which saw a rise in the number of chocolates and biscuits I was eating.. and on and on and on. I'd really like to delete this entire paragraph (but I won't) and admit to myself (and to all of you) that: It's all excuses, isn't it?
Last year, for N's birthday, I bought him a Wii Fit. This was at the beginning of our running kick, I believe. Our mutual goal of becoming healthier people, with healthy hearts and bodies. I used the Wii Fit for a little while, always lamenting at the fact that my Mii was slightly plumper than I'd like her to be. I set myself a goal of losing 10 pounds and then forgot all about it. Last week, I used the Wii Fit again. For the first time in 244 days it informed me. In those 244 days, I'd managed, of course, to not meet my original goal of losing 10 pounds. Oh no. Instead I'd gained a further 11 pounds.
So here we are, another year, another decade and I'm not making a resolution. I hate that word, it's so filled with defeat and giving up and failure. Instead, I'm making a life decision. To choose better, healthier foods. To be more active. To teach my children to make these same decisions and to make time together as a family to exercise and have fun. But to do it in such a way that won't induce food-guilt or shame. I'm doing this to lose weight but not necessarily to look better, but to be healthier.
I'll be starting out small. In fact, I've already begun. From today, I'm cutting out those small car journeys and walking to places that I once walked with ease. To the two toddler groups in our neighbourhood, to coffee group. I'd like to begin using the Wii for different work-outs, but to also have some fun doing it. I'd like to run around in a field with my boys, kicking a football. I'd like to stroll around the park and feed the ducks. In time, I'd like to jog in public. Maybe take up swimming again.
I'd like to drink more water, eat more fruit and vegetables. Reduce my intake of chocolate and biscuits and crisps. Snack wisely.
Wish me luck on my journey, I will need it.