Saturday, January 24, 2009


I had a great week. Did I mention that I've started running in preparation for that 10k I'm doing this year? I started a few days after the New Year. It went slowly for awhile, but I'm now able to run about 2 miles a day and not feel like I'm going to die. It may not sound like much to you, but for me it's huge. I'd taken a break last week and then decided to get back to it.

And that first run that I did was the deciding factor. The run that would decide if I'd keep going or fall back into a slump. I could feel it happening. I got on the treadmill, warmed up a bit, and started running. It got to about 8 minutes before I felt the excuses coming. I thought to myself 'it's my first run in awhile, I don't have to push myself too much, just run a bit and at least I'll have done some exercise, I went to the dentist this morning, my mouth is hurting, that's reason enough to stop now, I feel a stitch coming on, better not push it too much' and so on.

At today, for the first time it feels like, I saw through the excuses. It wasn't about my dental pain or about a stitch. It wasn't even about running, I don't think. Some part of me is afraid of what it feels like to accomplish something. To work hard for something and know that I did it myself. It's that little voice in my head telling me that I'll never do it, give up now before I waste my time, so many negative thoughts that I have been telling myself again and again, day after day for as long as I can remember.

And it was hard, but I managed to run right through my excuses. I ran harder and longer than I have before. I tried to distract myself with plans for the future. It was the best run ever. I worked out how old my kids will be when I'm 40 and the holidays I'd like to take them on. I sang songs to myself, wrote bits of this blog post in my head and thought of all the improvements I'd like to do to our house. And the most persistent thought that 'ran' through my head?

I can and I will.


  1. Wow - I feel very humble after reading your post. Well done you for pushing yourself and refusing to give in and good luck for the 5k! I think I'm going to do a 5k in March, but will defintely be walking!

  2. Wow, you're a tough lady!

    The thing that runs through my head when I run is "BACK PAIN" lol I'm not sure how it's possible but I think I must run wrong - maybe swimming would be a better idea for me!

  3. Awesome!

    My excuse is always that there are so many other things I'd rather be doing. I wish we had a treadmill though, I think I could motivate myself.

  4. Well done on pushing past your excuses. I felt like that before Christmas, but I made myself a list of challenges for the year, and was determined to keep on target and so far, so good. I look forward to reading more about your training.

  5. You can do it..I'm really proud of you.

  6. We're close anyways.. I have no plans to run a marathon, I just want to get back to a healtier size.. And man I'm still sore..

  7. P.s. Good luck on your running and stuff!!♥

  8. Congrats on running right through your're a woman afer my own heart and I love it!


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