So, you may have noticed (don't tell me if you haven't!) but I haven't been around much lately. The reasons for that are many. I miss you though. I miss blogging, I miss being part of this community... but I just haven't been in the right headspace for it. I'm okay. Everything is okay in my life - I just can't find my way back to the things I've loved previously. Big losses in my life seem to have stalled some of my creativity and I find that I can't (or won't?) force it. So, with everything else, I will take baby steps back into this thing but maybe I'm just not a blogger anymore? I can't tell.
For now, some of what I've been doing with my life lately!
Did I tell you I'm working now? I've mentioned it on Twitter, but not so much on here, I don't think. Around this time last year I was sending CVs out like crazy and filling out applications. I knew I needed to get out of the house and do something. Anything. The walls of my home had started to feel like a prison and we can all agree that that isn't a good thing, right? I ended up being offered a 12 hour contract in a little shop. I figured, 'eh, I'll stay for awhile and then move on' thinking it'll be easier to find another job once I had a job. Here we are not even a year later and I'm the acting assistant manager working full-time in the same little shop. At some point this month I'll be applying for the store manager role. It's scary and exciting all at the same time.
I love my job though. I love having a purpose. I love being useful, having a job to do. I know that I'm good at what I do. I enjoy the people I work with, I enjoy how varied my days are. I love being part of a team. I love getting paid for a job well done. I try not to look back on my life or have regrets, but I wish I'd found a job sooner. I missed out on so much.
...but who would I even be if I felt satisfied with my life and my place in it?! So, this month I'm starting a new course at a local college. I'm taking elements of what I love about my current job and working towards getting a qualification in something similar but outside of a retail environment. Once again, I'll be juggling full-time work with studying and also throwing in motherhood. Not only are the boys back in school this week, but shortly so will I. As challenging as it will be, I honestly can't wait. It's been awhile since I've felt this excited about anything.
But, again, there is excitement in my life. I've been working from a list of things I Want To Do. And I've done them. I've climbed the 02. I've fed the capybaras at the zoo. We've been out exploring, we have things planned until the end of the year. I have a list of things I want to do. Maybe I'll share those experiences here sometime? But life is too short not to do the things that make you feel excited. I'm going to do them all. I went go-karting with friends the other weekend and I absolutely hated it. Not for me at all. But do you know what? Now I know that. I tried it, at least.
I have been reading as well. Just not anywhere near the amounts I once read. I've read maybe 25 books this year? And it took me 9 months to do that. I'm okay with that. I'm hoping to write about a couple of them on here soon enough. I'm hoping to continue reading when I can and to give a little update now and then here as well. But no pressure on me. Until the next time, kisses.