I've been having those moments lately, the ones where I think 'god, I'm old' You know those moments... I'd walk into the kitchen for something and think 'what did I come in here for?' or as the shampoo is being rinsed out of my hair, I'll think 'did I shampoo already?' Is it just me? I've heard (a myth, surely?) this thing about women losing brain cells after giving birth, but I never really considered it until now :) ...
I want another baby. The feeling's kind of crept up on me in the last few months and just this week it's bashed me over the head. It's partly to do with the sheer number of pregnant friends I have. (Congratulations to Beth and Katie, Stephanie, Christie, Daniela, and bum, I think there was one more!) And it's partly to do with N working our old video footage of Elliot into a DVD over the last few days. I can hardly believe anyone was so small and beautiful! Elliot is now 16 months old, and I don't want Elliot's newborn days to be a distant memory when/if we have a second child. I like the idea of a two year + age gap between children. And I don't really have a point to this entry except this, I want another baby!
I was cutting a pineapple this morning for breakfast, and I'd just lopped off the top of the pineapple, and it rolled onto the floor. I noticed it had a little tag looped to it, so I picked it up by the tag. You know what was written on it? 'Gold pineapple - suitable for vegetarians' What is this world coming to?
Boring and negative
I have to nothing to write about and I feel very boring at the moment. I was in one of my moods this morning. One of my unexplainable moods where negativity takes over entirely. Do you ever feel that way? That you're ugly and fat and stupid and lazy and a failure all at the same time but that you're also feeling too sorry for yourself to do anything about it? I do, and I don't know why. Nothing seems to trigger it, and I am generally happy. Then I went on a cleaning spree. I swept and tidied and hoovered and dusted. There's something that connects cleaning to my bad moods. But it calms me down and makes me feel better. Maybe I just need out of this house and some sunshine. I think I'll go to the park later with Boy.