Friday, May 15, 2009
It's been a rough week for me. N has been working really late hours. Littlest has a slight cold and four new teeth coming through which means he isn't sleeping well at night, waking up at crazy hours and not sleeping at all during the day. Oldest is 3 1/2, which just means he's a constant source of energy and noise. My next assignment is due this Tuesday.
Any one of these would have made the week hard. But all of these combined made for one of the longest weeks of my life. I'm so tired and run down and constantly on the edge of a breakdown. A complete stranger at toddler group yesterday came up to me and offered to hold Littlest for a little because I looked so 'weary.' I've been comfort eating like nobody's business. I've been stumbling my way through studying with very little useable results. I've been trying to soothe myself by watching comfort films (Center Stage) and reading (four book reviews pending). But still, yesterday, I actually laid on the floor and cried, from frustration, exhaustion.
N should be home early today and he'll take the boys shopping with him so I have at least an hour's break. My mother in law is normally around to provide relief babysitting, but she's been doing work in her house this week. She's taking Oldest overnight tonight and promises to look after Littlest for an afternoon next week while Oldest is in pre-school. N's made plans for us to go to the cinema next weekend to make up for this week. I plan on taking it easy today, with nothing more stressful planned than a trip to the library and may consider asking for an extension for my assignment.
How do other people cope? Surely it's not just me at the brink of tears somedays?