Friday, May 15, 2009

Sigh


It's been a rough week for me. N has been working really late hours. Littlest has a slight cold and four new teeth coming through which means he isn't sleeping well at night, waking up at crazy hours and not sleeping at all during the day. Oldest is 3 1/2, which just means he's a constant source of energy and noise. My next assignment is due this Tuesday.

Any one of these would have made the week hard. But all of these combined made for one of the longest weeks of my life. I'm so tired and run down and constantly on the edge of a breakdown. A complete stranger at toddler group yesterday came up to me and offered to hold Littlest for a little because I looked so 'weary.' I've been comfort eating like nobody's business. I've been stumbling my way through studying with very little useable results. I've been trying to soothe myself by watching comfort films (Center Stage) and reading (four book reviews pending). But still, yesterday, I actually laid on the floor and cried, from frustration, exhaustion.

N should be home early today and he'll take the boys shopping with him so I have at least an hour's break. My mother in law is normally around to provide relief babysitting, but she's been doing work in her house this week. She's taking Oldest overnight tonight and promises to look after Littlest for an afternoon next week while Oldest is in pre-school. N's made plans for us to go to the cinema next weekend to make up for this week. I plan on taking it easy today, with nothing more stressful planned than a trip to the library and may consider asking for an extension for my assignment.

How do other people cope? Surely it's not just me at the brink of tears somedays?

10 comments:

  1. I think all parents have days like this. The tiredness just makes everything seem so much worse than it is.

    I hope you manage to get a good nights sleep tonight, and hopefully everything will seem better in the morning.

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  2. Lack of sleep is a huge energy drain for me. When I'm feeling fragile, all the little things seem much bigger than they are. I think everyone has days when they are hanging on by a thread. Hope you get the sleep and "me time" you need to feel better.

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  3. bless your heart! Thankfully next week seems promising of relief!

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  4. We all go through it, kids or no. I've been feeling a lot of stressful job pressure lately, so last night I went to sleep early. When I woke up this morning, one of the dogs had pooped and peed in the kitchen. Another of my lovely pets had knocked a vase on the floor in the living room and shattered it. Like you, I felt like curling up on the floor and crying (although what I was REALLY doing was screaming at my unfortunate cowering menagerie).

    Maybe it's the time we're living in. Everyone is feeling frustrated and stressed, from tiny teething kids to not-so-tiny grownups like you and I.

    I'm glad other people are willing to help you through this. If I were around, I'd give you a break too!

    Keep your chin up, kid!

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  5. I really feel for you at the moment. We have all been there and it is such a hard time. The only hope I can give you is that it will get easier. When both children are at school all day you start to notice the difference. It is good that you are getting relief time this week.

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  6. I had a horrible day yesterday too, and unloaded on my poor husband which only makes him feel like crap. Actually, I'll email you cause I feel a long comment coming on. Short version: You are not alone.

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  7. You're not alone. I go through it also. Kids and school are a hard combination.My advice: ask for help, find ways of studying, and try to get in the activities you love like reading. It's hard but hopefully it'll get better soon.

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  8. Sometimes, though, one must just cry. And that's okay. ANd if you can find a half hour each day to be yourself by yourself, with no demands placed upon you, you will make it through.

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  9. it is so hard at times. I dont know how I cope some days either.

    Imagine tho soon enough your boys wil be men and insanely enough you'll wish they were teething babies again just so you can hold them close to your chest and confort them without then running away in the opposit direction shouting in protest! ;-)

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  10. sleepless nights make everything in life harder. i can't function without sleep and so often, when there is no sleep, that's when everything else piles up and the tears start to come out. nope, it's not just you. i hope that you've gotten some much needed relief since then. :)

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